People of my year 2016

The past is past. Live in the present because there is nothing you can do about your past. Let your past be a lesson for you to live better in the present in order to create a better future.

if you're holding on to someone you shouldn't

This post is all about loving yourself right.

It was a captivating love story, cut short. There was so much passion and so much excitement. You finally felt free. You felt loved and they made you feel important.

They gave you feelings you've never felt before. There was an attraction and this connection that couldn't have been something ordinary.

You found someone who makes you feel wanted, needed, and appreciated. Akala ko, yun yun. It's breathtaking. You feel like this is the way things should be. This is something that doesn't happen twice...

Then slowly things start to change.

They don't call as much as they use to. They don't reach for your hand as much anymore. You feel like their lips are full of secrets. They are gradually drifting away, without any warning.

You constantly feel like you've done something wrong. Then you feel like you aren't good enough anymore.

And it hurts like hell because you're not ready to let go.

Whatever it was, whether it was you or them, you want to get things back to the way they use to be. So you hold on. You hold on so tightly because this was it. This is what love is like, right?

This is something you question if you'll ever be able to relive again. You hold on so tightly because holding on makes you feel something, even if it's misery.

I want you to know, that love isn't like this. Love never stops making you feel valuable. Love never makes you feel uncertainty or question if you are still loved. Love makes the hard times worth going through.

Love is never giving up on someone. Love is never making someone feel unworthy, useless, or unlovable. Love is holding on, but its holding on together. Not at the last strands of the relationship.

I want you to feel these things. I hope you believe that you will find something better than anything you're still holding on to.

When the memories start to exceed the reality, it's time to let go.

When you start to question your worth by someone's lack of effort, it's time to let go.

When you feel like you're being broken down constantly by their expectations of you, it's time to let go.

When you feel like you're continually being used time after time, it's time to let go.

When you feel like you are not just being ignored but unappreciated, it's time to let go.

When there are more lies than the truth, it's time to let go.

When they turn things back on you rather than admit their mistakes, it's time to let go.

When you are again after again not placed as a priority, it's time to let go.

When you're laying in a bed next to this person and you start to question why you're still here, it's time to let go.

It's hard when you can't place anyone above them, but they can easily put other people and other things before you. This is a difficult decision, but it is one only you can make.

I am a firm believer in fighting for what you love, but love never makes you feel less than who you are.

Process of moving on is so damn hard. But hey, nobody said you have to do it alone. Let go of him to lessen your baggage. ☺

At 29th is ♥

At first it was, what???!!! Am I really 29 already? And the feeling of I might not act as my age. Haha

I am not the type who denies age, nor lies about it. Yes, I am 29 already!! Older than most, younger than some, but utmostly happy and fulfilled where I am in my life so far. Not bad for the kid from Romblon who just dreamt and dared to take a chance, to make a change, who took lots of risk and proudly say that I BREAKAWAY!! :) Not bad at all. Tumanda naman ako ng pasulong, I think. 😀

What a year. WHAT. A. YEAR. 🏆

Grateful to still be doing what I love to do at the highest level, have people appreciate my work and continue to enjoy the stories I tell through my shoutouts and blogs, be surrounded by the best family in the universe, a bunch of people I have the luxury to call friends, and the Big Guy Up There who continuously showers me with overflowing love and blessing.

Time, in my opinion, is the greatest resource man has, so I wanna thank everyone who took time off their day to stop by and send me a greeting, a text message, a phone call, and the like. I send back all the positivity and love you have given unto me.

2016 has been beyond comprehension, 2017's gonna be even more greater! Salamat at kasama ko kayo sa biyahe. Tuloy tuloy pa tayo. ❤

MY #SUPERMAN

I have you since Monday this week. We were physically and literally close. You’re staring at me the whole working hours. I smile at you as if you can see me and understand my gestures. Everybody in the office is asking, why Superman? And yeah, I replied them one by one with, “Because I love him, because he gives me strength, he is my army and so my hero”. A little bit of crazy, right? And then I’ll give you a blink. I protected you from everybody and anybody who wants to steal and take you away from me.

Until this morning….

Sir Marvin grabbed you and you fell. I was horrible that I asked him in a louder voice, “why did you steal my superman? Give him back to me and don’t dare to touch him again if you can’t handle him with care”. “I hold him, hindi ko alam na mahuhulog sya. Dahil lang sa superman na to, inaaway mo ako. Grabe ka talaga sa kin. Sino ba si superman sa buhay mo? Sino ba to?, Sir Marvin replied.

“What’s mine is mine. Don’t touch him again para hindi sya nasasaktan, please lang po, Sir”, I told him.

“Wow. Hindi ko sya kukunin sa’ yo. Saka, hindi ako maka superman. Natuwa lang ako. I admire the way you protect your superman. But remember, he is the reasons of Lois Lane’s tears”.

Yeah, he, Sir Marvin is right. Superman is the reason of Lois Lane’s tears. He was perfectly right. Especially when we talk about the last movie superman had.

Experiencing the pain, hindi na baleng ako ang masaktan, kasi kakayanin ko, no matter how painful it maybe. Ngayon ko lang na realized, I was so busy protecting you from everybody, I didn’t see it coming, I should be the one be protected from you. Hindi ko alam, hindi ko namalayan, ganito na pala kita kamahal.

Ayoko ng nahihirapan ka, at ayoko ring mahirapan ka pa. Love Joy. Love her. Nauna sya at ayokong masaktan mo sya, ayoko ring masaktan sya. Hindi na bale ako. I believe you love her. She loves you, so love her, with all your heart.

I just want you to be HAPPY, to be loved by the person you choose to be with you, by the person you choose to love. And to be truthfully happy means being true to yourself, to your partner, to anybody who deserves your truthfulness. Face your fears, I hope I was able to taught you how, in a little way. Kasi pag mahal ka nya, kahit sino ka pa, kahit ano ka pa noon, kahit gaano kapangit ang nakaraan mo, believe me, mamahalin ka nya, yayakapin nya ng buong buo ang nakaraan mo at magtitiwala sya sayo sa ngayon at magiging bukas mo.

As to me? I will be fine. It won’t be easy, but I need to be fine, I must be fine. I’ve been through these heartaches; I know I will be. (Ngayon ko lang na nalaman, Herchelle and Ms. Lois have something in common. They are both brave. :) But I don't understand, why it is that there is sooo much pain this time?

My real superman will come, maybe not now, not tomorrow, not the day after tomorrow, but someday, somehow, I will meet my BEST FRIEND. In another world, in another time, for our own perfect time, this SUPERGIRL wannabe will meet the SUPERMAN of her life. I know and I believe, our paths will cross, soon. And when that someday comes, Ms. Lois will have his best friend, his hero, his own superman, his own man. She can again flash her sweetest smile she allotted only for him when he is about to kneel in front of her asking her to wear the ring he left long time ago, when the world thought he is already dead. And if the action character Ms. Lois will have to report to the world their love story thru newspaper, as she being a brave reporter, courageous Herchelle will let the world know her happily-ever-after story thru this blog.

Why does loving someone hurts? Why is it that we fall in love with someone who we can’t be with? Why do I love you? Why this much? Why it hurts this much? Why it has to be complicated? Why it has to be this way?

I wanna shout I love you. I wanna dance with you again, like what we did in my dream. Thank you, anyway for personally visiting me in my dream and for letting me experience one of my dreams listed in my #bucketlist. Ahh!

I want to go in different places WITH YOU. I want to do random things WITH YOU. But that’s the difference of wants with needs, perhaps. I honestly want to say I need you, but all I can say now is I want you, because someone needs you and probably I am not the one you need.

For one last time, allow me to say this, I LOVE YOU, with purest sincerity. I LOVE YOU from the bottom of my heart, more than friends, more than best of friends, more than your love for me, more than who I am.

And thru this blog, let me shout with an open arms how much I love you , as if I am in the open cliff and about to fall anytime, with so much tears in my eyes and the whole me is full of achy heart, I LOVE YOU, SUPERMAN!!!!!!! IIIII LLLLOOOOVVVEEE YYYOOOUUUU!!!!!

I really do.

I love you.

I love you. L

Love,

#SuperGirl wannabe

The Wedding Song...

Being happily married is a choice. Choice of whom you want to marry and be with you for the rest of your life and the ways you handle things comprises married status. This post is not about married life but of songs in a wedding that makes your wedding rights a memorable and hope so, happy one. :)

There are hundreds of wedding song choices played in a wedding ceremony, and actually thousand to choose from. Well, it actually depends on couples choice and taste.

This one is my new favorite. I want to share this to everybody. And here's why it soothes my ear and captured my heart.




Haayyyy.
How I wish, the man I will marry, will, if not sing this song to me, say the lines at least to me, someday. :)

And then, I am in love while writing this.

How about you, what's your choice of song you want to be played on your wedding day? :)

A touching sharing

Mom breastfeeds baby after mastectomy 

The woman in the photo was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer while she was pregnant. She had chemotherapy and had one breast removed while on the family way, and was induced to give birth at 36 weeks so she could continue getting treatment. Breastfeeding is such a sacred bond, and this one just makes my heart break and swell at the same time.

See You Again

What makes me love this song? The lyrics spoke from the heart of a TRUE friend who misses his lost friend, whom he consider as family.

It has appropriate touching and emotional lines and actually worked for Paul Walker who plays the character of Brian O'Connor.

It is a great and honorable farewell to Paul's character and his legacy.

So touching and moving, indeed.