i guess you really can't have it all

it's just the 9th day of the last month of the year, (the past days, in short) pero ang dami ko ng narinig na iba't- ibang kwento. ang super dream ng isa, kababawan lang para sa iba. ang problema ng isa, wala lang para sa iba. at ang gustong bagay ng isang tao, problema naman para sa isa. le'me share some of these stories:

"i wish i were independent"

from the very start, hindi ako nahiyang sabihin na mahirap lang kami. napaka- simple ng buhay pati na mga pangarap. but i like my upbringing. i was blessed to have parents that were the right mix of smoothly strict and lenient. but i do have friends whose parents are so strict, that they feel suffocated and wish so much for independence. "miss L" really wanted to do this, to hang out with, to go to this, that, those and so on. ang problema nya, hindi sya, sila pinapayagan ng parents nila. madalas nyang sabihin sa kin na naiinis na sya, kasi ang daming sinasabi ng magulang nila with every little decision na dapat sa kanila na.

for me, walang masama kung gusto mong maging independent. being independent doesn't mean that you don't love your family, na ayaw mo na silang makasama. being independent means, KAYA MO. para sa iba kasi, living with their parents come with so many house rules. ang hindi nila alam, kahit mag- isa ka, there are also rules. i am renting a room for myself, yes, i am living the life, i go out on weekdays, no curfew, no having permission to go out, no feeling that my move is being watched, but as a daughter, i never missed to inform my parents, especially my mother as to where i am going at kung sinu- sino ang makakasama ko for a particular trip.

Herchelle said: independence comes with great perks, but also comes with great responsibilities.


"i wish i were filthy rich!"

a lot of people wish they were filthy rich. even me, i have those moments where i wish i were filthy rich! who wouldn't want the resources to have anything and everything they want, right? i have a friend i would like to call "mr. everything". pag magkasama kami, madalas nyang marinig sa mga tao ang mga lines na "sana, may kotse ako na gaya sa yo, sana, may bahay kami na gaya ng sa inyo, akin nalang ang shoes mo, ang bag mo, at mga gamit mo". he does feel very, very blessed to have all these things. but with his blessings comes the struggle. he applied for a work in one of the big TV network here in the country, when he came back to the network to see if he passed the series of exams and interviews at kung makakatuloy ba sya sa final interview, nakita nya name nya sa listahan. at the top pa talaga for he qualified for the top position the network was looking for that time. there, he shouted the word "yes" sa sobrang tuwa. tapos narinig nya bulong- bulungan ng mga tao. na nakapasa daw sya, kasi binayaran na. na kasi daw, one of the executives of the said network was a family friend of theirs. "mr. everything" finds it hard to prove to people that he can do things on his own, without the power of money behind him, because knowing him, he can do it. he really can.

at marami pang " i wish"...

andyan yung:

- i wish, i were famous

- i wish, kagaya mo ako

- simpler folk want to live a fabulous life, social butterflies just sometimes want to live a simple life.

some say, "be careful of what you wish for"

others say, "you always want what you can't have"

there's also the saying, "you don't know what you got until it's gone"

and of course, how they say "make the most out of what you got"

putting all that together, it makes you think...

maybe, if you can't have it all..

sometimes, contentment and appreciation and thankfulness for the here and now will help make you feel that you do have it all. :)

speaking of friendship

how do you value friendship? how do you treasure your friends? do you have a BEST FRIEND? if so, bakit mo nasabing sya ang best friend mo?

i love being surrounded by people whom i called "friends". and i value them. i make the most of it to make them feel that i treasure them. i don't have a best friend in particular- but i do had a buddy- and the term-for me is in so different degree. iba ang degree nun para sa kin. para sa kanya, i was his best friend and  i am soooooo thankful to be considered. i miss you soooooooooo much, bud. i miss you so much! you may not be perfect in some ways, but many things can't be perfect without you. haaaaaahhhhh! there you are again, little teardrops. naaaah!

okay.
let me just share the story of my parekoy and his best friend..

Jen and Mike are best friends. honestly, hindi ko pa nakikita si Jen, at hindi ko alam kung magkikita pa kami. she's dead. naiku- kwento lang sya sa kin ni Mike. i had a texting moment with Mike yesterday. and i don't know, na sense ko na malungkot sya. and he said, yesterday was Jen's birthday. that he was supposed to go to the beach where he and Jen used to visit then. honestly, that moment, hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko sa kanya. kasi alam ko ang pakiramdam- maybe not exactly the same of what he felt that time- yung sakit at pagka miss sa isang taong kagaya ng best friend nya.

@ Jen: Mike is so proud of you. at kahit hindi kita nakilala, still and from the bottom of my heart, i want to say thank you. thank you kasi alam ko, may mga bagay kang nasabi at naituro ke Mike na hindi ko kayang sabihin at ituro sa kanya. who and what he is right now, what he believes, may kinalaman ka dun. hindi ko alam kong maniniwala ka, but you know what, kahit hindi kita nakita, kahit hindi kita nakilala,  malapit ka na sa kin.  Nasabi ko na sa kanya na I can be a good friend to him. Hanggang good friend lang ang kaya kong sabihin sa kanya kasi, I can't be you. Ayoko rin namang magsalita ng basta nalang tapos hindi ko pala magagawa. I can never replace you in Mike's heart, Jen. And i don't have an intention na palitan ka or gayahin ka bilang best friend nya. Hinding- hindi ko gagawin yun 'coz in the first place, alam kong hindi ko kaya. Iba si Jen. Nag- iisa lang sya. I respect her. Yes, i respect you. I may sound weird,but i don't care. if ever I'llbe given a chance, halimbawa lang, in my truest sense, I would love to meet you. I am happy that Mike knows how to treasure his friends, specially someone like you. I am proud of your best friend, Jen and just the same, I am proud of you, too.  :)

This video is for you. from your best friend, Mike.
Belated Happy Birthday to you!