After thirteen days, atlas! I was able to talked with my parekoy na! J On the 9th of current month, I was in my room and it sucks that I can’t sleep until 11:06 and my phone beeped. it was a message from parekoy asking if am still awake and wishing me a good night as well. I know, a lot of people would react on this. Some would say, “Okay lang yan”, “na para 13 days lang,eh”, and so on. But for me, pag umabot ng one week na hindi kami magkausap, hindi okay yun at kailanman ay hindi magiging okay. Two days lang na hindi kami magkamustahan man lang, ang dami ko ng maiisip. Of how he is na ba, if he is on his way going home na ba when the 9:00 or 10:00 in the evening reaches, if he take his dinner already or what, of what or how he feel as of the moment or if there’s something that bothers him, and lastly, if he misses me, too. Little that he know, I am missing him, EVERYDAY.
I am happy that we’re able to talk na. The unhappy thing and still echoed on me is that, I caused him pain when i asked him “nasaktan ba kita?”. Though he replied me with “Nasaktan pero okay lang”, tumatak yun sa kin- until now. I caused pain to the second most important man in my life??!!! That’s sh*t! I wanna burst. I am so heartbroken. L
@ Parekoy: Sorry. I am sorry. I really am. If you ever noticed that I am changing, that doesn’t mean that I don’t love and won’t care for you anymore. If ever Che has changed the way she talked, the way she cared for Mike, from the bottom of her heart- she’s softly apologizing. Inside her, she has no intention of hurting you. She just always hope for Mike’s safety and happiness. I do have fault kung bakit umabot ng 13 days na wala tayong talking moment. Honestly, gusto naman talaga kitang tawagan/ kausapin lagi. Gustong gusto. The thing is, nahihiya ako. Hindi ko alam kung anong oras ba kita pwedeng kausapin lalo pa ngayon na “bawal nang magpuyat”. Nahihiya ako na baka maistorbo kita, na baka makulitan ka na sa kin, natatakot ako na baka mairita ka, na you won’t talk to me, that you will just reject my call. Nahihiya ako, SOBRA! Pag tumatawag ako sa ‘yo, pakapalan nalang ng mukha. Tsk. Tsk. Kapal ko nga,eh. Ang kapal ko. L
But until now, I couldn’t imagine how the 13 days passed without me and you talking. Wala rin akong natatanggap na “request” galing” sa ‘yo. Kaya naiisip ko nalang, “Ahh, he doesn’t need me this time. He doesn’t need my thoughts. He doesn’t need my kwento.” It’s sad. Every time I think of it, I feel sad. I really feel sad. It sucks! Broken hearted is me. L
=> So true! L
6 comments:
you love your parekoy so much talaga, miss hersheys. why are you ashamed to call him? there's nothing to ashamed to,i bet. but you know what, your parekoy is really lucky to have you.he needs to love you more. sana always kayong happy.
carl is right, you don't have to be ashamed when you are about to call him. you love him so much, siguro naman,hindi sya nag iisip ng ganun. the way you love him, i am proud of you.
wag nang ma broken hearted si Che. miss ka rin naman siguro ni parekoy mo.mali. miss ka nun.
Keep blogging, sweet lady!
It's painful but sometimes it's so true that (sometimes), the people whom you cared for so much doesn't know how to care for you. in your case,maybe he is also shy to say that you should call him, but then, he's just waiting a call from you.well,may i just ask, do you know your standing for him? i mean, who is che for parekoy? just a plain question.
thank you and stay beautiful.
Hi Ms. Ludmilla!
may i know, if parekoy is the second most important man in your life, who is the first? i am che che po of p'que. thank you!
cute nyong dalawa!! bakit ka kasi nahihiya? sya na mismo nagsabi sa 'yo na wala ka dapat ikahiya. kaw talaga.
ingat ka lagi. mag iingat ako dito. :)
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