...For Michael John...

For what we are right now, this is what my heart wants to say that my lips couldn't declare. Not because i can't say it literally but because am afraid that we'll be okay and you'll ask for the same thing again.

Honestly, the first time we had a thing like this, it was absolutely heartbreaking. i said to myself, "ayokong isipin, pero nangyari na, so there's a possibilty na mangyayari ulit", and it's weird na naisip ko na yun, now that it's happening- again, i still feel the same, mas matindi pa nga.eh. i felt like it's the end of what we have and I must admit, it's emotionally, mentally and physically draining. 

Perhaps, you're right. I must have wait for someone whom I can call Parekoy.

As hard as it is to think and say, I think it's right for us to be just here. And when you think something is right, you have to stick by it. Everyone has boundaries. It keeps us sane. No matter who or what you believe in, you have to stand by something. You need something to believe in. I believe in myself, and I knew I was making the right decision.

I've always learned that when one door closes another one opens. That’s what life is all about. Making decisions. I absolutely loved my time with you. I could never thank you enough. I know, I can't get experience like this in a lesson. It’s the real world and we are real people. We worked hard to get to this point, and for instance the night comes that my mind will ask if i do have regrets knowing you, I would simply flash my sweetest smile and would say no. Just the fact that I met amazing person like you keeps me from regretting any decision I've made. I don't want you to think that I didn't care for you that I ended up with this decision. I just felt like it was time to move on, and sometimes in life, the right decision isn't always the easiest.

Sometimes in life you have to make things you don’t necessarily want to do, but it makes you a better mate and a better person. 

And for you, dear friends, as what I always say, i have felt all those feeling of hopelessness and worthlessness that you might be feeling right now and honestly, so have thousands and millions of people around you, it sucks! it's painful to peak to loose one of the most important person of your life, (knowing that he/she's the one who asked for a distance), the person whom you trusted the most and just the thought of losing the best of what you have with that special person sucks, but that's life is all about. But hey, nobody said you have to do it alone, nobody said you have to go through it all alone. Never be afraid for this kind of heartbreak 'coz in the end, you will learn things about yourself that you never knew was possible. 

And to end, never beg people to stay against their will. Sometimes, the gift of goodbye opens up another door. Move on but never move away, no matter how painful it may be. :-)